What a long week , I have never felt so exhausted after a long week of work but I feel ok about this new job. There are many things that has made this new job worth it , A weekend free of no work the night off so there is extra daylight to burn on my own time. This new job is very physical and it has made me realize that i need to make a change in my life ....Eating better drinking more water and having the energy to keep going.
Now if i can find a relationship that i can feel good about and at the end of the week feel exhausted and still feel good about things then i can feel happy inside again. I know that i can be hard on myself at times but i really wish i knew what i was doing wrong to just feel happy inside about who i was and where is was going. I had a long conversation with a friend about situation with T (my old lover) and was told that i needed to just cut all ties. This is difficult for me. I just want to feel happy and want to feel close to someone again , i am tired of feeling alone. I hope this is the right choice...
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