Sick

I am really sick to my stomach all i want to do is talk to T and share with her my feeling and hear her say that it will all be OK and the decision that i want to make is the right one. I have been doing a lot of thinking this week and i am considering a divorce, My issue that is holding me back right now is not having anyone to be by my side do it. When T and I were together she help me so much ,and i know that she is with a NEW man now but i cant even talk to her , UGH i hate it when there is no one there to share my feelings with like i used to...I started a new job this week and its been a new experience and a major toll on my body , I feel like there is so much changing in my life and i know that they say that if don't look for love then it might just find you ....Like i said i am sick to my stomach and it hurts inside like nothing i have felt before .....